I Thought My Back Pain Was Normal — It Turned Out To Be A Serious Disease

After nearly a year of symptoms, I started to question whether I’d really hurt my back, or there was something else going on. I began to read up on multiple sclerosis (MS). My maternal grandmother lived with primary progressive MS, and as I began to get more educated on the condition, I realized there was a lot of crossover with what I was experiencing. 

When I first mentioned this to my doctor, they were very skeptical. Still, they did all of the necessary tests. When I was told I had relapsing remitting MS (RRMS), I was devastated, but I also felt slightly relieved to have clarity about what was going on. 

Then, I immediately asked what this would mean for my dance career. To my surprise, the doctor said one of the best things I can do for MS is to keep my body moving—so dancing was actually a great way to stay healthy. That was music to my ears. 

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From there, I knew I had to get on the ball, and get my proper care team together. That included a good neurologist, a therapist, and a supportive community. 

Truly, I can’t emphasize enough how important it is to surround yourself with a circle of friends and family who can be there through every step. When I was first diagnosed, my husband told me this isn’t just your disease, it’s our disease. This type of caring and compassion is how I'm able to get through the really tough times. 

I also began incorporating healthy lifestyle practices into my routine, which I’ve kept up to this day. First and foremost, moving my body regularly is key—if I don’t, I feel like I get super stiff and my mental health isn’t where it should be. 

As I progressed on this journey, I also discovered music therapy—which has been around for an extremely long time. I began doing this type of work through MS in Harmony. They have different educational modules on their website led by board-certified music therapists. These exercises are designed to help people with MS support brain function, and potentially mitigate physical and mental symptoms. I’ve found this type of therapy to be so powerful.

Another thing I’ve had to learn is how important it is to be realistic about my bandwidth, and preserve my energy accordingly. 

MS rears its ugly head in different ways for each individual person. It’s absolutely unique for everyone. For me, a lot of the symptoms are cognitive, so you can’t really see them. When I’m fatigued, that’s when it shows—like maybe I’ll forget things or my sentences will get jumbled between my brain and mouth. 

If you have someone in your life who is newly diagnosed, I recommend asking: I want to be there for you, can you tell me what that looks like right now? That might mean sending dumb memes, checking in on how they’re feeling, or bringing them food—again, everyone is different and has individual needs.

And for anyone who has been diagnosed, I advise practicing patience with yourself. Work on strengthening that mind-body-soul connection, by asking: What do I need right now? One thing that MS has really taught me is to listen to my body. Even though you might want to seem tough and like you have it all together, but you have to take care of your own well-being if you want to show up as the best version of yourself in the world.

I truly believe the mind is stronger than the boy, so if you are in an awesome mental state of mind, everything else can fall into place.

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